Life change

So this may be a debbie downer post, but i'm gonna post it and get it off of my chest. Might as well. For the past five years of my life, I have had weight problems. I played sports in high school and ran my tail off ,but now out of high school and college, I have gained weight. I am uncomfortable in my own skin. I want to commend my cousin April. She has lost 114 pounds. She looks wonderful. I love her to death. Just seeing how happy she is and how she talks about how it keeps her motivated, wants me to try to do better myself. I think I am really going to try it this time. I always say well, tomorrow I will start, or "no sweets for a week". I always FAIL. Well today's the day. i want to win this stupid battle and get skinny and pretty again!!! here we go!! Short blog, but i wanted to share.

Life is short

Life is short. Changes can be made at the drop of a dime. The reason I say this, is because my 92 year old great grandmother( who was previously healthy) had a massive stroke last tuesday. Most of us call her Granny. Granny is 92 and lived on her own. She watched the braves game until 11 o clock the sat before it happened. My cousins found her at her home. She had suffered a massive stroke, and had been down for quite a while. I went down to the ER after work hoping to see her, but by the time i was able to report off my patients, they already had assigned her room and were ready to take her up there. I went ahead and went up to the room with the rest of the family. We all jumbled in the room ( maybe ten of us). It was heartbreaking to see her like that. Seeing someone you love totally in a different light than normal can be gutwrenching, and it was. I was on call, so i went into an open room and made a phone call to a patient. My dad runs in the room and says that something is happening to my uncle steve i have to hurry up and get in there. I hang up on the patient, and run in there. He is pale as a ghost. He had passed out, and meanwhile hit his head on the window seal. He had a gash above his eyebrow. We took his blood pressure because he didn't look too good, and it was extremely low. We took a second trip down to the ER. He was stitched up and sent home. I was walking to go see my sister at work, when i look over outside the ER and my sweet sweet boyfriend is walking in with a dozen daisies... My favorite. He is the sweetest thing ever. Such a charm. Well, everyday last week i spent my breakfast lunch and dinner with granny at her bedside. I worked on the same floor, so it was convenient. The decision was made to move her to hospice. It has been such an easy transition for all of us. The nurses and doctors there are great. It is a wonderful place to be. I hope that my granny will go on to heaven soon so that she won't have to suffer any more. At this point, it is just a waiting game. We're all "on call". When we hear the word, we will rush down to hospice to hopefully make it for her last breaths.

This whole experience has really brought a light to my eyes. My granny, the one i thought was so health and strong, is on her deathbed right now. How could this happen? It goes to show me that anything can happen. Life IS short. We all should live it that way. I think if more people thought they only had 24 hours to live, they would be doing a lot of things different. Why not do that everyday now? It would just make sense. It also seems that if we truly lived life as if there was no tomorrow, we would live a life full of NO regrets. Regrets such as not visiting granny in the past two or three months because of my hectic schedule. I should have MADE time for her. Now, it is too late for me to do that. My only plea is that people, OPEN YOUR EYES. God has given us all a wonderful plate (if you will.. of course i am displaying life as food).. We need to learn how to enjoy what is on our plate and not worry about other things. We need to utilize what God has given us.

I hope that this was not too sappy or boring for anybody, but It was on my mind and i wanted to share it. I hope that whoever reads this will get something from it. I know this whole situation has sparked a plug in me. Live life for God. Everything else will fall into place. LOve you and God Bless,

linds

OOEY GOOEY

Do ya ever wonder if what you're doing in life really matters?? Well today I had an a-ha moment!!! I had the sweetest patient. She was a first time mom having trouble breastfeeding. I stayed in that room for about thirty minutes trying to get that little man latched on. Finally, I succeeded. Well, she did, but with my expertise (ha).. Anyways, The whole day they were so sweet. Near the middle of the day, they decided to move to the Titan's suite on our floor. Its on the opposite end, so obviously I would no longer be their nurse. I would have to pass them on. They begged me to stay with them and be their nurse. THey also asked me to come by before I left that day. They were so cute!!! I went by and saw them right before shift change, and they were so sweet. They asked me to come back again and see them tomorrow since I will be there again. It just felt so good to have a patient think that highly of me to want me to stay and be their nurse and take care of them. It made me realize that these mommies really look up to my 24 year old non child bearing self to give them advice on baby training etc!! Its kind of neat.

Also, its kind of neat the knowledge that flows from my mouth when these mom asks me all sorts of questions. And when I say all sorts, I mean ALLLL sorts ha. For example, I got asked by a patient if she had to make a boo boo before she could leave the hospital. I said excuse me do you have to make a what??? She goes... you know... a BM? bowel movement? I had NOOO idea that is what she was meaning. So there ya go I have learned new slang. How to deal with grouchy patients, and screaming babies. I feel I have succeeded.

Meanwhile, this past week has been a little crazy. Dad had knee surgery a week and a half ago, and Tuesday after his post op appt had to be hospitalized. He won himself an overnight visit for a DVT, which is a blood clot in his leg. So this past week he has been giving himself injections and having to take blood thinners. He will probably be on them for a few months. After that, they will check him to see if they see any genetic issues. Just kind of scary!!!!!

Okay so I have rambled, so I am going to go to bed. i will be working my second of five twelves in a row tomorrow.. sheeeesh.> GOod night!!! :)

Full speed ahead

Well, I have been through a LOT this year, first the house, then graduating, then getting a job. It's all been a whirlwhind. I have had lots of ups and downs, but I have amazing friends and family to get me through it. I wasn't really going to tell anybody, but I dont really think anyone reads this anyways, so I'll go ahead and say it. I am in the process of buying a house as we speak. Can you say SCARY? Umm.. yes. I love love love it though. It is my dream home and just happened to fall into my lap by accident. That's how things are supposed to happen though.. right? yes.. Well to tell you a little about it, it was built in 1904. It is an old historic white sided home. Beautiful. I will have my work cut out for me in the next few years, but I am so looking forward to the day when i can say that my house is just the way I want. Many things have gone through my mind these past few weeks. Am I ready? Should I really be doing this? How can I get through this and own a house. Terrifying!! I have my wonderful parents, my sis, bro in law, graham and my aunt faye/uncle jerry and many more people who have given me support already.

I just figured out how to upload a picture of it.. So there it is.. 207 college street. Hopefully my future home. We've signed a contract and will hopefully close on OCtober 29th if all goes as planned. I know!!! Super soon. I am so excited to do it though..

On another note, I have been super stressed lately. (ha wonder why?). I just can't seem to shake it. I know i'm not getting enough sleep, but I guess that's part of being in the real world. You work work work and dont seem to ever get to rest!!! I mean yesterday for example, was a horrible horrible day. I was so overwhelmed and felt like I was about to have a melt down.. a good old fashioned two year old tantrum... But....... FINALLy last night I was able to come home from work (still on days for right now) and watch a movie and relax. It felt so good. I did miss hanging out with Graham, but he had homework and i decided to take this opportunity and grab it. Boy did it feel good.

Other good news is.... I'M GONNA BE AN AUNT AGAIN!!! I'm so excited. We won't figure out what it is until probably thanksgiving or so, but Leslie is due April!! We are so excited. Mason is about to have his world rocked to another dimension!!!

Well i will quite boring yoU!!! hope you guys have a blessed day!!!!